Tender paw prints..


Phia and I before it was time for her to go

   warranted and understood
Wagging tails and ragged purrs
    A fondness to form
Changing all.

Staying for moments
   ending far too soon
Lives forever changed
     And sent ahead with love
Memories of joy undimmed.

Every moment
Every lick
  Every game
   Every purr
    Every thing
Each a blessing beyond measure.

Fallen and yet to fall
   Sinking into fur warm and soft
A big tongue to wipe them away.
    Peace found in peace given.

The most loving act
   most painful still
the giving back a freedom
    to play without reserve
love forever carried.

Peace is found
  in giving peace
There is no more pain
   No more uncertainty
More than worthy of this kindness

   And Loved.


Pudders - just before she became an angel....

Rest in peace, my beloved Phia.
Rest in peace, my precious Pudders.

Come snuggle with me tonight and every night to come. I will miss your physical presence and grateful that your spirits will be with me always, all ways.

I love you both. You will always be mine.

*yesterday, May 5, 2013, Pudders passed from this world and is waiting for us on the rainbow bridge until it is our time. Dan (my husband dear) rescued her 19 years ago from a farmer who was ready to end her life. The life she gave us was beyond expectations…

Today, May 6, 2013 we released our 13 year old dog Ophelia Jane from her well worn body. We thought that we were losing her a full year ago. She rallied and healed. I know now- She stayed with us until she knew we were safe. The cancer had come back and stopped her digestive system from working properly. She was in far too much pain and discomfort. Although it was painful for us, her physical pain was more so we did the most loving thing we could. I held her head in my lap as she slipped away.  I am sad but grateful for every moment together.

with Love, Light and Blessings….


A Blessed Moment in Time…


Summer of 2002, a year of daily witness and then 5 blessed days of re-membering...

From the beginning, Spirit/God/dress/Gaia/Energy/Vibration/metaphysics/communicating our Truths/ Deeper Understanding/Living Consciously was huge part of our discussions and was the foundation of our choices….

We had been chatting daily for a little over a year.  I was a web programmer and had IM windows open all the time with coworkers and friends. We spoke daily. First about MS (I was diagnosed in 1998, Dan in 2000) and then we starting sharing our understanding of the Universe. I had more of a Neo-Pagan understanding while Dan has a strong understanding of Hindu Gods and Goddesses. We became each other’s mirror, helping to reflect and and a chance to refine our expression of Self. The conversations continued as we recovered from relationships and as we practiced honoring ourselves, claiming our time to be single. We shared all our stories, with absolutely no concept of expectation of a romantic relationship.  NYC and Chicago are too far apart.

Then I watched two towers fall. I was laid off. My cobra hiccupped and I was without avonex. Dan was working. He provided me a month supply. Worth almost one thousand… I said “I can’t pay you back but if you come to NYC, you have a place to stay.

And this was then…


   That was an amazing 5 days where we finally found each other, after our own lessons, after learning to love and honor our Divine Selves, finding our highest Truths reflected in each other’s eyes… I am blessed have all my journals from this time and I am able to reconnect with the woman I was at that time.  Things fell into place so naturally – we celebrated the moments that showed that the Universe was acting on our behalf…  there were a lot of joyous tears…

Yes, we have circumstances that others may call challenges. But Love is far stronger. We choose to live a reflective life. And I am grateful.
May we all be blessed with enough.

with Love, Light and Blessings….

Recent creations….

I’ll add more details in my next post… for now, here’s a few pretties I’ve made recently….


Fluorite with a Red Jasper bead, with Amythest and Blue Jade chips -Silver Wrapped


Purple Fluorite Jasper with Amythest and Blue Jade chips-Silver Wrapped


Malachite pendant


Kyanite wrapped in silver


Chrysocolla pendant


Another Kyanite pendant, this time in copper...


Chrysocolla pendant (silver wrapped)


Quartz pendant

I’ll add information as to each’s purpose tomorrow.  Peace be with all of us tonight.
Love to all.

with Love, Light and Blessings….

Go there…

Go there…


I watch the snow fall
A connection Back
  but with New Eyes

A moment claim-able
   at All times
Time to Practice Congruency
      Following my Spirit’s Urges
as I claim this
        Healing Time

Connect with (and back) to the Sparkle
   the Flitting Light
             that Exists in between
Always,      in All Ways
    In this Moment

Time to See with New Eyes
Look for the Sparkle
     Go there.

Suzanne Lamoureux Kriesant

with Love, Light and Blessings….



Far beyond what I
       could have
         should have
             would have

But I breathe.
  A way to be found
I only know
    My next step.

It can be hard to
    speak out loud
but to stretch
    is part of my journey.

I have returned.


Silent visitors...

with Love, Light and Blessings….

The truth about Methadone and Pain Management…

OK… my level of frustration has reached a level where I must educate someone, somewhere, knowing that it may not make a difference in my life, but this may help another person suffering from chronic pain.

This is how I create a silver lining when all I can see are dark clouds.

Dan and I have MS. It manifests as extreme chronic pain. In order to maintain a manageable quality of life, we take pain medications.

There is one medication, used for decades for long lasting pain control. It has also been used to help addicts get off of heroin. For us, Methadone has been a life saver but it also has damned us to extreme discrimination.

Methadone works on specific receptors in the brain. These receptors are also subject to heroin.  Think of keys and locks.  The drug is the key, the brain cell is the lock.  Methadone, when used for drug abuse, blocks the cell’s lock so that heroin cannot act upon the brain. When used for pain control, it unlocks the nerve cell and suppresses the pain signals, thus reducing pain.

We each have been prescribed low dose methadone (for pain control) for over a decade. We have never, ever, even tried heroin. Why are we being treated like drug abusers?

Our current problem is finding a doctor out here in rural Illinois that is willing to prescribe methadone for pain control. Even the “pain management specialists” are scared of it. But here’s the fucker- we have less than 2 weeks of medication left. It would be quite dangerous if we just stop the medication. The withdrawal would stress our bodies- stress we cannot afford.
Dan has survived 3 pulmonary embolism since we got married  (a blessed miracle three times over) – it is this kind of stress that could generate another clot.

We have an appointment with one doc at the end of March. There is no way we can make it to then.

So everyone- please understand. Methadone is a well studied and widely used pain control medication. Don’t just assume that it’s for drug abuse. 

I just pray that we find a solution.
Thanks for listening….

with Love, Light and Blessings….

Done and signed…


She is done…
“Unnamed” watercolor on 140lb paper 12×18

And I am pleased. I’m quite happy how this ended up. I’m learning the rose.

Many years ago, an art teacher of mine (Sal) got frustrated with me because I wanted to do a painting of my wedding bouquet. It had a rose or two in it. It was the one (and only) time I let him use my brush. He painted a few strokes and it gave the impression of a rose.

I have improved greatly since then. I am grateful for the opportunities that I have been blessed with that has brought my craft to a whole new level….

I think I still have his email someplace…. maybe I should send this to Sal…

Peace be with us all…

with Love, Light and Blessings….